Today was the last day of school, and from this minute, starts my Christmas Vacation. Everyone at school was in the holiday spirit, buying gifts, giving cards, hugging, laughing, enjoying the Christmas Show, all of that. For some reason, I didn’t have that same joy. I went through the two periods without smiling once. Why? I have no idea really. I don’t think I was upset about not getting a candy gram, but maybe because of something I heard the day before. There was this innocent freshman outside playing handball, when I heard a sophomore walk up to him and say “Dude, it’s pretty big in this yard. You could bring a girl in here, f*** her, and then …” The kid was so innocent, but after hearing these vulgar words of which we call english became subject to the disgusting pointless way of life most people live, and don’t try to fix. I for one, am tired of the pervertedness of the kids of my generation. It sickens me to hear a female be referred to as a “female dog.” Each day, I hear someone much younger than I cursing at the top of their voice, when I am only to say 1 curse 2 times in my life. It also amazes me that the parents don’t even question their child when such words are said. It saddends me to know that those are the people who will soon rule/lead the world of which we live in.
On to the Christmas spirit thing. I don’t think I have it. I have no money because I constantly give it most of it away to help those who consider themselves more needy than I. So, I can’t buy anything. Today, someone asked me if I was getting anything for my brother. I said no, and they reacted as if I was a bad person who didn’t care. Sure, he bought me pens, and sure it doesn’t matter that I don’t need the pens, but I have no money. I am not going to make a card because that would be pointless. What else can I possibly do? As I walked up the stairs to my apartment, I couldn’t rack my mind to find any answers. It seemed to be only I who didn’t really care that we were going on vacation. It seems that only I am not in the mood to say “YAY CHRISTMAS.” Why me? I know one of my friends says “Merry Christmas” and moves on, but at least he has the spirit. I feel down, and I have no idea why. Oh well.
Last part of this blog entry will be my New Years Resolution. I am not sure of what’s on it yet, but the ideas are flowing as I type…so here it goes.
1. To Be More Open around people.
2. To save money more often
3. To make more friends.
4. To practice piano as a second instrument.
5. To be nicer to people and buy people stuff for days that are important to them.
6. To be myself.
And lastly, here is my 2nd to latest video. The next video I post, will be the Presentation of my team….HoT (Hero’s of Tommorow) 
Song of day : Those Who Fight – Final Fantasy 7
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